This is Not Good

I don't normally post this type of thing on this blog, but... well, if you know, you get it...

I'm starting to feel tremendously depressed. Despite my good start to NaNo, it is not proving to be the distraction I had hoped for, and my fondest wish right now is to crawl into bed and stay there for a couple of millenia. Tomorrow is going to be an incredibly stressful day at work and I am not looking forward to it. I have been dreading it for 2 weeks.

I'm hoping that today's blues are due in large part that I am running on approximately 4 hours of sleep. I hope that as I go to bed now, I'll wake up in the morning feeling refreshed and rejuvinated and maybe ready to take on the world.

I've spent much of this evening choking on the lump in my throat and I hope that when I turn in for the night, it just doesn't all start coming out and I can't sleep for the crying. I feel so many things, I can't even put them into words. Ashamed, apprehensive, sleazy, annoyed, frustrated, tired, angry, sad, scared, and anxious.

I hope I feel better tomorrow.